Hi, I'm Aine.
I am fourteen years old & a freshman.
I'm a lover & a fighter.
I get angry easily, but I'm working on it.
I party, sleep and think too much, but I get my shit done.
I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries.
I don't let many people in or trust many either.
I live in the past & I feel my life is flying by.
I'm strong and independent and I've been broken, but never shattered.
I wish I could show you the hell you put me through. Then maybe, for once in your life you could see how it feels to be made a fool of, to be made a slut, and to have everyone saying shit about you that they knew nothing about. I just want you to understand what that feels like.
No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of the fall, No one is afraid to play, they are afraid to lose, no one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what's in it, no one is afraid to say "I love you", they are afraid of the response.
I don't want to disapear. I want to stay with you for forever. I want to remember your smell, your laugh, your voice; everything. It's so hard to think that one day this will all be gone. It feels like we just got here.
I am in love with words. Words that touch. They may hurt but they touch, that's what counts.
I can't help but wonder if you still think about me.
If I promise not to cry, can you do me a favor? Look me straight in the eye and tell exactly how you feel about me.
There hasn't been one day since you left where I haven't fought the urge to put you back in my life.
When I close my eyes, I'm with you.
I smiled at him, in spite of myself, and felt my feet step forward, closer. It came so naturally to put my arms around his neck, my fingers finding each other there. And just like that, we kissed.
I have a feeling that you're gonna break my heart again. I have a feeling that I'll let you do it.
I still crave your attention and aproval. And I have no idea why.
I like sunrise better when I'm getting up early than when I'm staying up late, you know? It's like I'm seeing it from the wrong side.
I think you want to be beautiful in someone's eyes, you want to be seen. Like if I shot off fireworks and no one was there to watch them, and I closed my eyes, they become beautiful in being seen. Maybe you're not supposed to be beautiful to be seen, you just have to be seen as beautiful, by someone, by one person.
You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.
Tell him I hate him, Tell him I never want to see him again, Tell him I want him to die. Just dont tell him I said all this with tears in my eyes.
You know me too well. When I said I didn't love you, you looked me right in the eyes and said, "Bullshit, you're just running away."
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can just fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you're ready to let it all end. Trust me. I know exactly how it feels.
let's be honest; you're sort of a whore. see how many boys are pounding at your door? it's a game of chess, and you're the king. you smile and pretend you don't feel a thing.
I'm just hoping that one day I won't care so much.
I have wasted thousands of kisses on you, kisses that I thought were special because of your lips and your smile and all your color and life. I used to think that was the real you, when you smiled. But now I know you didn’t mean any of it. You just save it all for your songs. Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight.
And even after I cried for four hours, Even after I swore you off, All you had to do was kiss me once. And I fell for you again.
I didn’t come here to tell you that I can’t live without you. I can live without you. I just don’t want to.
Everyone has a weakness, but I have two; everything you say and everything you do.
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Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance? And no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know you're better off without, but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn't know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn't deserve you, but yet you choose to overlook it because you love him.
I'll laugh down the hallway, I'll smile all through class. I'll talk during lunch, and do my homework at night. I'll talk to everybody, and I'll be happy throughout the day. I'll fool everybody, cause they wouldn't like me if they knew who I am.
Awkward moments define me. I'd sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth closed. Yeah, everyone has bad days, I just have more frequent ones. If you don't like me, don't act like you do; it really won't offend me. I've made mistakes, I've let people take advantage of me, and I have accepted way less than I deserve.
I just want to live my life without you. I want to be able to wake up each morning and not wish you would call me. I want to be able to walk around with a smile and pass right by you without a second glance, without noticing that you never gave me one.
No. I don’t want you anymore. I don’t need you anymore. I don’t even miss you anymore. You think you still have that hold on me. But honestly, you don’t. So go find some others girls heart to mess around with.
Standing in the pouring rain, i need to know if it's over cause i will leave you alone. flooded with all this pain knowing that i'll never hold her like i did before the storm.
& I can't think of anybody else who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you.
I'll pretend I never meant a word I said. And we'll go on believing we can be friends. But every time you look at me, I feel that hole inside my chest. And you can see it, I know you can.
You're gonna make mistakes, but it's what you do after those mistakes that really matters.
So lets lie in the grass and stare at the stars, live in the moment and try to figure out who we are.
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.
I'm not like any of the other girls. That’s where you made your first mistake.
Hi, I'm Aine.
I am fourteen years old & a freshman.
I'm a lover & a fighter.
I get angry easily, but I'm working on it.
I party, sleep and think too much, but I get my shit done.
I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries.
I don't let many people in or trust many either.
I live in the past & I feel my life is flying by.
I'm strong and independent and I've been broken, but never shattered.
